Anonymous asked: WOW @ tumblrdatinggame(.)com WTF is this.. my little brother's roommate is on this and I think I saw you too lol

Why Spamela why?!

Dear Sweet Baby Boy

I’ll miss you dearly, and I am terribly sorry I am too weak to say goodbye. I just think it will be better this way. No one needs to see a full grown woman crying and carrying on like a child. So I’ll do that in the privacy of my home. I wish I could keep you forever and watch you grow but you werent mine to begin with. I hope that everything turns out great for you. And I truly wish I could be there for you, handing out guidance or little pieces of wisdom when you need it but that just isnt possible. Maybe one day years down the line I’ll see you and smile because you wont remember me but you have forever changed me.

Since I’ll be missing it Happy 1st Birthday.

One day

I’ll learn to be sexy. That day is not today.

I’m going to sleep

Because you told me to. And because it’s 4 am.

Goodnight.

Where has all the chocolate wine gone?!

It’s about to get emotionally tense

I’ve been taking care of an eleven month old boy for a while now. And when I originally got into the situation I continually told myself I would become attached. His mother has hit a rough patch in life and needs a lot of help. And honestly she isn’t a fit mother. The state is likely going the baby back to her soon, problem is she hasn’t changed her ways. Today probably was one of the last times I will watch him. When I rocked him to sleep I got really upset. He is so innocent and sweet and deserves so much and could be so many things and right then my heart broke for that baby because if she doesn’t get her life together he probably will never be all the things he could be with enough love and guidance. I just become too emotionally invested in things I shouldn’t.

Sorry for my lack of proper punctuation. I’m too upset for that.

I’m just really going to miss taking care of him.

And if we’re being honest

Then honestly I think I need a drink. Actually I just need to fall asleep. Damn you Investigation Discovery. Damn you.

Anonymous asked: Lol half of your followers are on tumblrdatinggame(.)com

I have not a clue as to what that means… But I’m going to go with thats cool I guess.